Sensibility is having the capacity
for sensation or feeling; responsiveness or susceptibility to sensory
stimuli. Mental susceptibility or responsiveness; quickness and
acuteness of apprehension or feeling. And having a keen consciousness
or appreciation.
Is
putting someone's well being first while knowing you are offending
their sensibilities ok? I know now it is not.
I
recently offended a very dear friend by thinking I was being kind by
letting him sit on a chair while I chose to sit on the floor. We
had a back and forth....”Sit here please, he said” While I
stubbornly refused and chose to sit on the floor. Back and forth
and back and forth we went, he finally gave in and I felt happy that
I was protecting him.
He
frowned lovingly at me as I sat on the floor. I said to him, “I am
sorry I have offended your sensibilities”. I feel bad about the
entire episode. He was the epitome of a gentleman, offering a woman
his mothers age the chair. I now know that I embarrassed him with my
stubbornness and I am truly sorry. I don't relate to him on a
mother/son age level but on an equal deep friendship level. Looking
back on this I can see maybe there was a part of that mother/son
coming from both of us to each other and my heart warms at the
thought of it. I won't be arguing about being offered a chair ever
again.
How
much does it take before you turn your back?
This
also has to do with sensibilities. I had a dream I was turning my
back on a person that was acting in a way that offended me to the
core. We were in a small room full of people waiting for his
performance of sorts. I had the opportunity to tell him in front of
everyone that he was being an asshole to the people that he had
invited there. Everyone else were like sheep and just waited and
accepted what they felt was normal behavior in society. He returned
my opinion with insults of his own and I left the room and went
outside.
I
woke up in a state of deep sadness on the verge of tears. Avoiding
the news from the US for the past year has made my life and heart
lighter. When I was trying to figure out where the hell this dream
came from I realized I glanced at a few lines about a Senator that
was not allowed to inspect an immigration detention center for
children taken away from their parents. They would not even let him
in the door!
And
then I saw the news of a famous designer that hung herself and left a
note to her 13 year old daughter telling her that it wasn't her
fault. Her obvious mental state and what she did will change the
life of her impressionable daughter forever.
My
entire life I have always felt my heart breaking when watching or
reading the news, movie or book having to do with humans hurting
other humans. I would sit on the sofa and cry wondering why the
world is so awful, wanting to change it and knowing there is nothing
I can do.
There
are times when I really really dislike humans, but then one human
comes along and offers me his seat.
